So, 2018 is coming to an end in 19 hours and 54 minutes. I feel so indifferent towards the new year, but at the same time I'm scared shitless. 2018 still has so many loose ends that I haven't tied up, and bringing such negative energy into 2019? Makes me feel like my 2019 is off to a bad start.
But like what V said, isn't new year just another day?
Right, it is just another day, but there's something about the calendar restarting that brings this overwhelming obligation to right the wrongs, to start anew, to leave the bad, be stupidly hopeful about mistakes that bound to happen over and over again. Right?
But I don't feel hopeful at all.
I'm beginning the year jobless, depressed, insert all the negative annotate you could ever think.
I can't even begin to string my thoughts and sentences anymore.
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