Alone Time

My kind of alone time is to dress up nicely, walking downtown, exploring all the shops while listening to "Open" by Rhye. Buying the things I want, trying the clothes that I would not buy, trying the shoes that's too high for me. Sometimes I would flirt with all the people I see, smile at all the strangers. Sometimes I would be all cool and ignore everyone, because it's my alone time.

My kind of alone time is to bring a book or my drawing to a cafe. I would order a cup of frappe, sit down for hours and not move at all. I'm too busy trying to connect with the book or my drawing, escaping in to the other world, a world where I would live freely and boldly. I would ignore the real world and only leave when my butt gets real numb.

My kind of alone time is to sit on a bench by the park, or lie down on the play ground and think. Think of all the questions I would ask and answers I would give. Why do the clouds move? Why didn't I say this? Why is he acting this way? Is there friendship between opposite sex? Where have the time gone to? I would spend hour listening to myself, talking to myself, stressing and relieving stress, only to find out that there's endless problems in the world and I would not solve it within one day. I would then pick up my pace, hum my favourite song while I stroll back home.

My kind of alone time is during the middle of the night. I would sit by the living room without any lights. I would sometime plays some soft music, and feel deeply. Music connects us to our souls. Sometime, I would just sit by myself, staring at the dark yet comforting sky, and listening to the howling of the night wind. Chilly, yet warm inside.

My kind of alone time is to sit in the kitchen with my laptop while it plays indie music, reading articles on thoughts catalog. Sometimes I will read it out loud because I love to hear my voice, or it makes me feel more than I normally felt. I would read poems too, poems about love. The gentle words, waves of calm slowly hits in me, the inner peace, and desire of love.