Me, myself, and I

It has really been a while since I last returned to this almost-abandoned personal/public space.

I couldn't say life has gotten any better or worse, at least from my point of view, it got better.

To be free from relationship problems, that's a biggest breather. I have never liked the feeling of being tied or bothered by something, even though right now I'm feeling kind of empty but hey, asexual, remember? Me, myself, and I? It's all about me now, call me self-centered but I'm happy satisfying myself, but am I satisfied really.

Well, I have been working my ass off: 8 hours work for 6 days a week and earned quite a bit of money. Leaving out my social circle but I will do something about it later. Or maybe not, since I'm never a socialised person. Meh. I hate going out.

I'm practising this thing called the "ignore". Ignoring all the bad things. Bad customers, bad days, bad relationships with anyone, bad people, bad attitude and yada yada. You know nuff says "ignorance is bliss", that's true, very true. When you choose to ignore, when you choose to not know something, you may be leaving out one whole big load of truth, but what you get in return at the end of the day, is to have your mind (and feelings) protected from the truth you choose to not know. Remember, me, myself, and I?

It's all about "me" now. I spent because I want to feel good. I ignore because I'm my own warrior. I vent because it feels nasty to bottle up feelings.I laugh because I can't contain my laughter. I stare because I'm obviously not being happy with you. I fight because I think I'm being wronged. I do all these because I want to give myself an easier and better life. Yet, thinking about self is deemed as selfish in the eyes of the other.

But most chose to fake. They fake that they are not angry, they fake that they are fine with everything. Fuck! No one is not fine with anything. And at the end of the day, they like to complain about their already pathetic life. You have a choice at first, you can choose to be your own warrior and defend yourself, fight for yourself, protect yourself, no one pointed a gun at your head and say, "lose yourself". You did.

Why make your life miserable. Remember, it's all about me, myself, and I.