What again

As seen from my instagram, yes, I'm doubting about my choice again.

I found out that A level isn't what I want to do.

Maybe he's right, I'm not the studying material.

As much I want to prove him wrong, studying is not my material.

Only after I took my Promo 1 exam, then I was like,

Fuck A levels man, fuck it. I don't want to do this.

I know what I want to do, I want to be a Paramedic, be in SCDF and SAF.

However, due to my insufficient grade for O level Math,

I was rejected for my application to NP's Nursing course.

Yes, what kind of points can I get to not be eligible for Nursing which is like 24 points?

I failed my bloody Math man, and I'm taking H1 Math for A level, 

that makes me hate A level even more.

I'm not willing to retain a year in MI, because seriously, I can't stay in that place.

So my next alternative is Higher Nitec's Nursing and Paramedic course.

You got me, Higher Nitec.

It seems to be a disgrace for a O level holder to be in ITE.

That's what pulling me back from going full force to what I want to do.

Judgement, I'm not sure if I'm ready to deal with that.

The people there, I can't really say that because I don't know who will I meet there if I were to transfer.

Pray that I will meet a good company of classmate.

It's a drastic jump, from A level-to-be holder to ITE cert-to-be holder.

Even I can't believe it.

I just don't want to do what I don't really like.

I just hope that I will meet a group of good influence.

Maintain my GPA to be qualified for L4 of paramedic to get a Diploma or even a Advance Diploma.

Get scholarship from SCDF.

Sigh.

Please tell me I won't regret my choice okay.

Don't make me think twice again.