Food for thoughts (1)

Perhaps I have always been the childish one, the unforgiving one.

I thought that not bitching about them, not butting in their business, I'm being the bigger person.

However, only today, did I know that I'm always the one that's the most petty.

I'm not butting into their business, but when ever I know something about them, my mindquickly judges it.

"Why is she even bothering about it, we are NO LONGER friends, remember?"

I'm not bitching about them, but I hold grudes towards them. Whenever I remember the incident that causes what we are now, I'll be cursing and swearing to myself like there's no tomorrow.

What I only know s only the surface story. A friend told me that this person who I used to friend with is tellling other people about me. Automatically, my mind says that,

"Nope, she's up to no good. She must be being biased against you."

My mind controlled my emotions, I started to think why is she being a busybody there hen I don't even do that to her. I got so furious.

But it's only just now, when I met another friend of mine who is also her friend, then I know the details.

"Worry for what", I would say.

But I didn't.

I listened to her. That person messaged her in the middle of the night, with al the concerns she carries. Being worried. I was dumbfounded.

All the whileI'm the smaller person, holding grudges, thinking that if I don't butt into their business, I'm being the bigger person.

Maybe if we let go our hatred towards each other, though not contacting, but still trying to find out each others' doing.

Maybe if we tried to understand the circumstances they are in, change our mindset.

Maybe would be the bigger person.