Memories

人类回忆过去只有两个原因

一是他们怀念之前所有的时光

二是他们决定放下过去，再也不回头

我这次怀念是因为我决定放下。

我不知觉放下我的过去。

人会怀念过去是因为不舍。

他们知道时光永远到不回。

我当然舍不得。

但是有失就有得。

该放下还是得放下。

Surprisingly on my bus ride to school today.

I did not think about anything.

Nothing.

I tried my very best to at least think of my math,

I failed.

I guess this is a good sign as I had finally let go (I think) of what matters to me the most.

That memory/thought that had been bugging me for weeks.

The feeling of letting go is amazingly relaxing.

You will feel that the heavy load that you always had vanished just like that.

However you will miss that, of course.

Well, it is true that what will go and don't belong to you, will leave, sooner or later.

Haha.

Everything has an end to it.

It's kind of saddening to actually know that what you thought you two had together,

was actually just a stupid one-sided feeling of yours.

And you're like,

Oh, so that's what you actually felt? I thought we feel the same about each other.

The sense of disappointment and embarrassment.

I have no idea if it's actually a good thing to hear it from your friend's because there's a possibility that you lied to cover the truth,

or sad because you opened up to others instead of the direct party.

Too much assumption is not good.

That person you shared so much with, who you thought is special

was actually just another normal person.

You thought you two were different.

But actually it was only YOU who thought so, he/she doesn't think the same way.

Yeap, so I think the past to you was all crap.

It's okay, because right now, it's nothing to me too.

Foolish of me to actually think that you are different.

Ya, you are just a different gender from my other female close friends who I always talk to.

Know what?

It's best to stay away from friends of opposite gender.

However no more worries.

We had graduated, things are easier now.

3rd day of O and I want it to end soon so I won't see his (sickening) face.

And that I'm off to my normal hectic life with Red Cross.

Diverting my attention.

Hmph.

In the mist of examination I updated my blog I'm so dead OAO