Breather

It's once again an unearthly time.
Typing this post on my handphone because my laptop finally RIP on me.
Not forgetting to mention my phone is going to die too.
Having NDP preview First Aid duty later in the morning but I'm up.

Sigh, what else is new.

A lot has happened.
Details? No.
It's personal yo, even though this is my personal blog.
The picture was taken when I was at East Coast Park cycling my ass out.
So painful the next day.
It's good great to clear things up.
But not for me la to be honest.
It strains the relationship, somehow.
But I'm enjoying the breeze from the man-made sea.

Kulinggggg~~~~ (cooling)

P.s. Listening to some shitty cover to an awesome song. Nooooo don't ruin it. TT

I guess it sucks being an introvert.
Like you want to open up to people so much, but you just can't.
You can't be like extrovert, start up a conversation free and easy.
I always end up straggling with what I should say.
Like,

"Should I say this? What if he/she thinks that I'm weird? But what if she don't even want me to talk at all? But the situation is so awkward and everyone is blending so well and I'm here like.. Fuck it I shall keep quiet."

That conversation we will have in our head.
We hope to make friends too.
Friends that you talk so much that you guys know what you're going to say next and continues the sentence for you.
But I guess I'm not up to it huh.
I confessed to batch 11 yesterday that I absolutely hate having a conversation.
Maybe because I'm so conscious that I think that whatever I say must make the other party feels all right (?).
This I tend to stress myself up, end up keeping quiet.
You see, making a conversation can be as easy as ABC 123 for all you talkative people there (haha jk), definitely not for me.
It's hard as hell-ah.
So people who knows me, I'm not shy, just hate talking.

Anyway, I talk about that because I was talking to one of my junior about it.

And, you can't force me to talk yo. I'm not a dog where you can just pull me by the slash and I'll follow you.
And sometimes, I do want to talk.
Just that, my thoughts are travelling at the speed of light which is I forgot my physics.
Occupied with thoughts, geddit?

Okay, to those who don't understand, you may think I'm finding excuses to defend myself.
Fineeee.
But that's all I want to say.

On a side note, Tonight (best you ever had) by John legend is hellah sexy song. So sexy ooooo.

Okay, good night.

I hug love like YouTube and readers of ma blog.