16-ed. Now what?

5 day passed since then.

Everything is still the same.

Nothing much.

So when school ended, I went to find Bao Yuan at Subway.

She treated me to a meal there because she was sorry that she couldn't find the book I want.

Ya, haha.

After that, I had my usual cup of Oolong milk tea.

My first cup of milk tea after turning 16.

And we went to find a corner to sit down and finish my drink,

then she gave me my present which I had expected.

Yeap, 50 shades of Grey.

I finished reading it within 3 days.

It's very erotic. 

I gotten my prelim results back,

it's better than prelim 1.

However, there's still a lot of room for improvement which I shouldn't be having it at this time.

I have no idea if I should be happy because I improved,

or frustration because my results still suck like hell.

I do know I have no more time to spare or waste.

I do know I can do well because I know my standard.

I just need the confidence to be sure and certain of my answer.

I just have no idea where can I have all these confidence when there isn't much time left.

All the various future struck me.

The thoughts of being unwanted by the society because I do not have presentable results.

No future, no talent.

All these should be enough to motivate me to study.

I went to a friend's house to bake with BaoYuan,

and he asked who is better at Chemistry.

BaoYuan said that mine is better.

Better in such a way that my mark is higher than the two of them.

And when he knows my mark, he said that his better meant people like YongXin, who got way passed the passing marks.

I was like, "Hmm, okay, find him to teach you lah."

Damn, I suck.

If my parents groomed me in my talented area, 

I'm pretty sure that I won't be in this school,

but striving for my goal as the top.

Right now, I'm watching a Taiwan Idol drama (I know I shouldn't be watching it now by whatever)

Alice in Wonder City.

On my twitter, I said that this show got me setting new goal.

This new goal of mine is kinda, unrealistic but heck care.

I have decided to picked up Guzheng again.

Or, I can pick a new musical instrument.

I said that if my parents were to groom me in my talented area, I won't be here right?

LOL.

Maybe.

Even my ex guzheng instructor said that I'm talented.

-Blush-

I know I'm being too full of myself.

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Watching this show, 

I understand the feeling of how hard and unwilling is it to actually gave up on something that you once so loved.

Giving up on music wasn't entirely my choice.

Well, enough said.

This marked a new chapter in my life.